unpredictable journal

30 July 2004

Pale, sick

Slept pretty late yesterday but manage to wake up on time today morning. As usual waited for Kelly to phone me and we go to school together.

Waited for about 15 minutes then the bus reached but was full packed with people. So didn't manage to get into the bus. So I waited another 99 and was afraid that I might be late for the assembly. 5 mins later, another 99 come and I saw ** so went up to the second lever of the bus. Obviously I don't wish to see him.

So reach school le, but was stopped by the councilor at the shelter. However, a lecturer told the councilor not to stop us but order as to hurry up. So wasn't late for the assembly lor. Good man! Or else my effort of waking up earlier will be wasted.

BSA lesson was busying doing assignments so didn't go online and update my blog. Hm, after which was EFW lesson and again, guess something is wrong with Mdm Juhairah. Well, all of a sudden I'm damn afraid of her. Even I left my EFW assignment book in the locker I don't even dared to ask her for permission to go down and take. But I can predict it would be more worse when she discovered that I don't even have the book. So at last, I took the courage and asked her for permission and she say yes and nothing else. Sigh, what's that to be afraid of?

So after lesson will be a lunch break? All of us didn't have our lunch but was sitting down at the canteen to chit chat chat. After one hour then went back to class for OFP lesson. Supposely, will be having a test but was postponed to Monday as Mrs Png would like to do a revision with us before we sat for the test. So we have a quiz instead of test. As usual, Mrs Png choose the 3 leaders (Rotated) for each team. After which they will choose their own team members. So I was in Kenneath's group. Well, I didn't study for it so didn't score even 1 point for my group so... Well, not only me, other people also didn't score for our group. So end-up our group only scored 3 points wherease the highest group scored 14? Haha... fun lor.

After wish we are allowed to go home. Hm, Gina wasn't here, guess she was sick. So I went home alone and the bus journey back home was pretty fast.

Took a shower after reaching home as the weather is pretty warm. After which sat down at the living rm and have a chat with my jie. Haha, long time didn't chat with her le, so have a lot of things to chat chat with her. After a while she went to work le. So mum was asking me to take a nap before doing anything cuz I looks pale and sick. But me didn't lor. Just went to my rm and tidy up the book-shelfs. Now very neat wor... but for sure will not last long de lor. Perhaps, after a week, it will be the same as last time le, damn messy de. Well, let's see ba.

After tidying the shelf, went to do my CDP project. Typing the resume till half way kor kor come back and say wanna use the com for a while. Then I was like angry with him lor but didn't shows my anger out. Cuz he says only for a while ma.

Then me went out to the living rm and play with Pearlyn's. Then my mom ask me go and eat dinner then I say I don't wanna eat. Cuz is Oyster Rice. Me not dare to eat oyster ma, mama also know de. So she say I scoop for you one plate without oyster in it. Then I say okay lor since I didn't eat anything in the morning. So 've my dinner with mummy lor. In between, she nags lor, say me not dare to eat this one eat that one. Next time after giving birth to baby needs to eat all these so that the body will not be so weak. Keep on saying not dare to eat must learn. What what what... then me eat fast fast lor... So when finish eating le, damn tired... feel like sleeping then went to the living rm and sleep on the sofa. Haha... everytime also like that de.

Just fall asleep not long, kor kor say he finish using the com le, ask me to continue with my project but I didn't I shut down the com and went to sleep. But who knows that I couldn't sleep at all. So lying down on the bed until 8pm went to practise cello for about half an hour. Wanna continue to practise de, but the Pearlyn lor, don't let me practise. So watched tv together with her in the living rm. Then mummy ask me wanna eat any pills ma? Den I say don't want. Then daddy ask her what happened to me. Then she says me looks damn pale and sick. Then daddy keep quiet lor. After which, went to my room and watch the channel U shows as daddy wanna watch the Channel 8 ones. So after the show finished, sleep le.

Oh ya, Jo's says that Ms Chew couldn't help us on our examination date. Sianz... another one. Haix... but Jo's manage to find one for us. Charging $1/second. How expensive it is. But sigh... nvm la... and is a promise that I'll never take any of this kind exam again. It's just a waste of money lor. Like Mr Ji had say, sometimes, cert is not important at all. What really important is your skills in playing cello. How true it's.

So end of my journal for July 30

I hope I'll luv myself more

22:00

29 July 2004

What's wrong with you, Mum?

Me now still at home (10:07AM). Sigh, whats wrong with my dearest mummy? How can she forget to wake me up today morning. Just because I was late, I missed one lesson, S&W. But due to the far distance from my home to school, I couldn't make it on time for the next lesson, CTS, therefore, I choose not to go. After which, will be lunch break, but usually I don't eat on Thursday and Friday. So, I rather stays at home and go out to school at about 1130 to have my POT lesson to submit my accounts file to Mrs Png.

Hm, today my god-brother, Elgin's taking his piano examination. Hm... hopes that he's confident enough, relax and not nervous at all. Hopes he do well throughout the whole examination. Jia you le.

Mine, will be less than a month to go. Sigh, no confident at all. Well, sometimes, I really have a thought of giving up cello. Perhaps, I'm not talented in it at all. Just that I master the skills when I practiced. But what if I'm too lazy to practise or I'm too busy to practise and for sure my skills will slowly be impaired. However, a person who's talented in it need not to practise so hard and he/she will be able to pass his/her exam damn easily. Or should I just consider them lucky?

Recently, guess I had concentrate too much on scales. Everyday also practice scales without fail. But guess I neglected my arpegios. Most of the major and minor arpegios are alright for me except for a few that needs to be played in the higher position like A minor, B flat, maybe also A flat and A major. Well, no difficulties in playing it except for the accuracy. The most difficult for me one will be the A minor. Well, my left hand fingers are not so long to open it so wide. Sianz... Maybe I should change another fingers.

As for the three pieces wise, weren't playing too well. Last year, Chanston Triste was well-played compared to Sonatina. But this year, the opposite way. Well, hopes that I can find the way I played Chanston Triste last year. So that I would be able to played both well this year. Hm, the third piece wise, still thinking should I give up the Robot's March. Well, both Robot's March and Melodies Studies No.5 tempo wasn't well controlled. So tempo not steady enough. Maybe because of the tempo needs to be played damn fast and somehow, I miscounted it and thats causes me to have an unsteady tempo ba. Sigh... Both pieces sound equally nice. But I could only do out the dynamic for Robot's March and only for the ending. The rest, still alright. But as for the melodies studies no.5, I'm doubt I could play it well. Haix...

Oh yah, Elgin's finished his exam le, just got his sms. Well, just about to sms him. Haha... glad to heard from him that there's only minority mistakes and slips. Good wor. Feels happy for him wor. =)

Hm, yesterday do some research for my CDP project. Manage to find more information for the IKEA le. Good man! Like that I'm sure I can score well for it. Well, not sure whether is it countable or not. Erm, cannot say like that. If there's an assignment or project given to you, no matter how much you hates it, you dislikes it, you have to do the best for it. Right?

Hopes that I can get back home early today. Cuz tomorrow still have OFP test. Have not makes note for it. Well, a gigantic topic wor. Sound too exaggerated le la. But really have to study more details for this topic compared to the last two topics. Guess today Mrs Png going to teach the new topic ba. Or should I say the part two of Record Management? Thats means I'll be taking only the part one of Record Management tommorrow. Hm... then Monday will be a BK countable test. Base on the BRS. Haix... maybe, Sunday don't wanna go CC practice le. Take leave. If not, I couldn't have sufficient time to do lots of things over the weekends le.

Hmm, guess that's about all.

I hope I'll luv myself more

10:05

28 July 2004

Impatient

Not very sure of the reason why I prayed hard that I'll not board the same bus with Jasmine. Sigh, perhaps, I feels em for showing her attitude yesterday. But too bad, we boarded the same bus. So the bus journey was like so bored as we're not talking to each other. Both of us were standing but she was listening to her discman while I just stood down there.

Almost late for the make-up Bk lesson. Luckily Ms Ng haven't started the lesson. Tummy was like aching during the make-up lesson and lucky enough that it stopped after coming back from the break. If not, I couldn't concentrate during her lesson. Not quite understand the "Control A/Cs" so went to the library with my c'mates. Jasmine guided me a little and of course, I'm clear about each an every entry. So thanks to you, c'mate.

After lunch was BSA lessons. Well, as usual, doing assignments. After finish doing, we're allowed to go home. So waited for Kelly's at the bus stop as it was a little cloudy when I steps out from the school gate. I was like a little mad at her. Well, all I can say is that, I'm not that patient to wait for anyones.

I hope I'll luv myself more

20:59

27 July 2004

Forever so bored

Wa liao today damn mad at Kelly's man! She called me at 0650 to go out and meet her then me reach the bus stop le, two 99 buses gone. Sigh, then waited till 0700 one 99 bus came le but then packed with people. Then we decided to take bus 242 to Jurong Point interchange and then took MRT down there. Haix... ez-link card no money then me just top $5 lor. Haix... cuz no money le ma. Some more, ez-link no money should be dad the one who top it de. Haix.. *Frown*

Then first two periods were EFW. Then first hour we did a reading of yesterday newspaper. Then gotta adapt an article and then do a summary of it and give comment. Second hour we use it to do a letter of enquiry in a group of four. Haven't finish yet but guess JL will complete it ba.

Follow by OFP lesson. Not too bad la, but many of my c'mate scores higher then me. Well, nvm, not counted into the CA. So... work harder lor.

Mention of that ar, I think I didn't do revision nowadays, that's why results not so good. Sigh, mummy yesterday evening also got say me, say that she didn't saw me read books or do any revision recently. Haix... maybe today gotta do my revision for OFP and BK le or else... die man!

Then is lunch break, then as usual lor. Eat le, went to set up stall at the booth to collect money for the pens.

After which is BK. Haha... lecturer forget to bring down our test paper (marked) so she shows us the results using her laptop first. Wa liao, me thought that I couldn't score full mark but then arr, I was wrong ar... haha... I got write the "Bank Reconciliation Statement". So good lor.

A... now having BSA lesson... wa liao very de bored. Forever so bored. Sianz.

Update

Wu-mama board the same bus with me when I was on my way home. Well, she didn't saw me. Nvm. When the bus reached BLCC I saw Pei Shan's and Mitchell's walking to the CC. I thought they didn't saw me, but they did. The bus was about to go and at this time, they ran towards me, waved their hands to me. Of course, I waved back. Hmm, was like a little happy lor. Haha...

I hope I'll luv myself more

14:21

26 July 2004

Teamwork

Today morning wasn't feeling too well. Thought of not going to school but I went and of course I was late. Well, or should I say I wasn't late. When I reach the general office, I saw Ms Ng standing down there. So I thought that test had started but she told me haven't.

So went in to the classroom and had a quick revision. Ms Ng did a revision together with us too. I was among the first few who had finished doing the test paper. Well, I think I spot some errors when I was doing revision just now. I forget to underline the co name, forget to write "Bank Reconciliation Statement" and forget to draw lines. Haix... very careless orh? But can't help cuz me actually forgotten that there's a test today.

After which, was EFW. Damn bored. Did 7 assignments in 2 hours. Sigh, guess gonna suffer again tomorrow.

Bell rang already, so will be BSA lesson but we didn't attend as we went to the co-op shop and help out for the collection of uniform for the Higher Nitec students'. So I was there for 3 hours?

Hm, a lot of things happened when I was doing the co-op duty. But the major issue is that, Jasmine arr... haix... ask her to void the transaction but she didn't so end-up we got to fork out 10.95...

Of course, we not cruel la, we divide the amount equally among all those who was at the counter today doing cashier. So... each one of us pay $2.20... haix... bring $20++ in my wallet left only about $7? Too pathetic le ba... but again, this is what I learn, teamwork...

Both subjects CDP and OFP are to be taught by Ms Png but she wasn't here. So we're allowed to go home earlier. So happy lor.

Sigh, don't know how come nowadays, don't have the mood to do project and revision for my subs. Sigh, cannot continue like that or else die man!

Haix... tomorrow 've assembly so gotta go there earlier or else Ez-link card will be conficated and will only be return to us at 1615. Sigh, lesson end at 1515 so of course cannot let it be conficated ma. Haix... what a stupid punishment that my school had.

Hm, guess gotta sleep early if not I will be late again for tomorrow assembly le. Ke lian wor...

I hope I'll luv myself more

22:23

25 July 2004

A day I enjoyed myself the most

Today actually had to wake up earlier but couldn't manage to do so. Maybe yesterday slept too late already that's why today feels so tired.

Combine practice was like damn bored today? I mean I was late and I reach there at about 1115 but the combine haven't starts yet. We played two or three parts of the whole songs for about three times and thats it. Mainly because we lack of too many instruments. Sigh

After combine practice, went in to instrument room and pack all the thingy inside the drawer. It was so messy that I couldn't stand it. So tidy it up and clear up all the mess.

Waited for a pretty long time before juniors come. Well, things didn't goes accordingly to my plan. A little sad but I still enjoy mixing around with them. They're simple too adorable that fun-loving person. They're very supportive, obedient. I was just merely telling 'em about the 3 kids raising fund for the language problem students and immediately, they asked me how much was the ticket. I hope it's just about $15. Or else, guess it would be a little too expensive for them.

Was about to go home and guess who I saw? My dearest mummy. Haha, surprise man! I thought she hardly 'll go out nowadays esp sunday. She should be resting at home but she went to old jurong. So she bought us a lot of junk foods for dinner. She bought cute chicken (KE AI JI), fish and chip, rojak and bao bin (Po pia). Wa lao, then I self-pity myself. For about one whole week we eating meat no vegie. Sigh, when will my mom cook a much more balance meal for us?

Eat my "dinner" until half way, Pearlyn come to our house. Cuz her mummy asthma attack again. Sigh, not sure what had she ate wrongly. So when my JIE FU fetch my sister to Bukit Batok Poly Clinic to see doctor, Pearlyn will be staying at our house so that my mom could look after her.

About 11pm now, his dad haven't come to fetch her back home. Sigh, guess he had forgotten about it already ba? Haha... can't be de la. Just kidding.

Oh ya, Mr Ji told Mu He to tell me that I've to work harder for this year cello exam. Haix... guess couldn't be able to pass le. Well, depends on my luck ba. About one more month to go.

Just now, went to wooden river de webby. Very de nice. Take a look ba... http://picturetrail.com/_ah_mu. Nice webby wor. I like all his drawings. Each drawing has its own value.

From all the drawing that he drew, I can tell that he's mostly on his own when he's feeling down. There's no ones for him therefore he couldn't share out his feeling. Well, he could have been hiding in the room and draw all lots of stuffs. Maybe, he draws too during his leisure time. And that could be some comic character ba.

Sigh, I wish I could help him but provided he's willing to look for me up.

Hmm, that's all for today ba.

I hope I'll luv myself more

22:24

24 July 2004

So sad

Wow... sleep until noon today. Haha... so woke up le, went to have a wash up. After which, made a cup of milo for myself and bring it to my room. Have a strong urge of playing cello. So went to the next room and starts practicing.

Hm, everything went smoothly today. But just couldn't play as well as Thursday. However, I'm glad that I had practiced.

Finished practicing, came online and update my blog for the pass few days. Type till half way, there was spyware advertisement promt out. It was a spyware scanning program. So I downloaded it and scanned my PC for spyware. A 67 mixture of documents, programs, cookies etc were infected with spyware. So I was wanting to remove all these infections but sadly, I couldn't. As I needs to registered with the spyware company and pay a $39.90 using Visa card, master card etc. So I was sad lor... cannot remove those infections. Cuz I don't have Visa card etc ma. Haix...

So went to continue with my blog until now lor. Then heard a sound of violin from the news. Wow, a girl who's very sensible. Why do I say so? She was wanting to had a concert to raise a fund for the sickness kids who is the same age as her. In fact, 2 girls. Another girl aged 9 years old helped the girl who's performing the violin aged 11 for accompanyment pieces. The concert will be held on the Nov 12 at Victoria Concert Hall. Haha... I'm going to support them on that day. Anyone wanna join me? Haha...

Sigh, these few days we had been eating meat. Eating ducks on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. Chickens yesterday and today. Sigh... mom, we're not a meat eater okay? Could you please cook some vegie for me tomorrow?

Haix... just receive a phone call from Li Juan's. Sigh... her mom don't allow her to join man! But I did talk to her mom that she has shows great interest in cello. So I really do appreciate if she could let Li Juan join the CCCP. Then she say she re-consider about it again. So frenz out here, pls pray for her that her mom will let her join the CCCP lor. Haix...

(My feelings)

I sincerely do hopes that Percie and Li Juan 'll be coming tomorrow morning. As for the rest, if they're not interested, I won't be forcing them. The piece we're going to practise is tough enough for these two juniors and I doubt they'll be playing tomorrow. Most probably, they'll just be sitting down there listening to us. Sigh, hopes that miracle will appear.

Purpose of asking them to join the Sunday practice is not just only joining the combine practice. My intention of asking them back is to teach them new pieces, new skills, passing them knowledge of cello, music as well as having more experiences of performing in concert hall.

I don't mind making such a sacrifice if they have shown great interest and potential in playing cello. I believe a little sacrifice will gain advantages for myself as well as themselves. I wants to set a good example to them, I wants them to learn from me. I wants them to observe how I interact with them, how I makes them so co-operative. I wants them to be the same as me, gaining lots of advantages when learning cello during my secondary school life's. I wants them to be an outstanding cellist in one year time, just like the last bach of my junior's. Finally, I wants them to teach the next bach of juniors. I just don't wants them to waste their time learning cello for nothing.

And once again, I would like to emphasize these. A person who's good in studying are those who's good in time managing. And to Li Juan's mom, if you really care for her, you shouldn't stop her interest.

I know you're worry about her, but I don't mind going to your house and help her to carry her cello to the CC and bring her back home once the combine practiced had finished. But that provided you allows her to join. Why can't you made things simple for me? Like that, it's an advantage for both you and me.

She's a girl who has a great influence to the other 5 juniors of mine. If she's not coming, I doubt the rest will be joining too. So I sincerely do hopes you could allow her to join. And I'll prove to you, a little sacrific of her health and time will gain her lots of advantages by the end of this year. You will be proud of her when you saw her up on the stage performing together with the whole orchestra and the decision that you had made will never be wrong. Please trust me...

I hope I'll luv myself more

18:47

23 July 2004

What's wrong with her?

I was being awake by the phone call from Kelly. Oh shit, I was late. (Sigh, don't know what's wrong with mom. I had told her a million times that I needs to wake up earlier on Tuesday and Friday yet she was at the bathroom when I woke up. [Sad].) So asked her to give me 10mins while I go and have a wash up. After which, meet her to school.

Luckily we weren't late for the assembly or else I'm going to hate my mom for it. After which, went to com lab to have BSA lesson. Wanna update my blog but end up I didn't cuz of all the assignments that Ms Tay given to us.

The bell rang and the next lesson was EFW. Well, don't know what's wrong with Mdm Juhairah. Jeline just made an error yet she was getting so agitated, even gave the whole class a lecture. Luckily she didn't did any amendment or had said sorry to us. If she has done so, I would have hated her the most. We're not a 3 years old kids'. Mind you, Ju's. Each an every time, you're not in a good mood, you throw all your temper on us. After cooling down, you treated us something as an amendment, saying sorry for what you had done. What do you really take us as?!!

I was told by Jasmine that Pei Zhen wants to go home as she was feeling terrible sick. I advised Pei Zhen not to go home as later on we'll be having a OFP test. But she insisted. What can I do but to accompany her to have her lunch before she went home and had her medicine. Hope she feels much better after taking medicine and had a good rest.

OFP test was a little tough for me. Well, serve me right. Who ask me didn't do any revision for this test. But every lesson I was attentive enough so manage to do all the questions. We're allow to go home once we hand up the test paper. I hand in at about 1235 so as usual went home with Gina.

Wa kao! The bus was so humid, crowded with students. It was so warm that uniform was wet. Sometime, I feels envious of myself. Like I had said earlier on, the bus was so warm yet I still manage to fall asleep. Haix... can't help as I was too tired.

After getting down of the bus, the weather was windy and that cools me down. [Great] Reach home le, went to have a shower as later on will be going to cc for sp.

The path way to the second level was damn dark. The light wasn't switched on, frightened me. When I had reached the venue, I was told by Jo that Mr. Ji wasn't here today. So was little happy? Haha... but a "collegue" of Mr Ji's came to take over him just for today's lesson.

It was a lady addressed as Ms Lee. Why there's a " " when saying collegue? Because I don't think that lady was his collegue but his student's. The one who has make it to the music series of the S'pore university. She looked so young that I couldn't take it if she really was a collegue of Ji's.

After she went off, I went to look for my juniors. Then realise that two cellos were spoiled. Sigh... I was sad but what to do? They're adorable enough, to cheer me up. Asked them to play C major scale. Honestly speaking, I was damn disappointed. But I was aware that the result was going to turn out as what I had on mind. Ironically, Mitchell's and Eunice's played the best.

Have a chat with them. Asking them to join CCCP. Immediately, Li Juan shows her interest in it. So she went to ask Percie's if she would like to join her. Well, I was rather surprise when Percie says she is coming on Sunday with Li Juan. I was taken aback because I asked her once before. But she says she couldn't make becuz she has to attend her tuition class in the morning. But now... she's coming. Well, that's great.

Mitchell's coming too and guess Pei Shan as well. Wahaha... I'm afraid that we might not had enough cello. Well, nvm. SQ says before he will purchase more if more people are coming in. So let's pray that he kept his promise. For sure, I will ask him to fetch me down to choose cello and that will be my cello. Haha... day-dreaming. But hor, that's what he said to me when I haven't joined cc. He say he will buy one for me if I joined the CCCP. But until now... he still haven't buy one. Haix... nvm.

So went home together with juniors they all. Haha... they are so fun-loving that I enjoy chatting with them.

Reach home le. Didn't saw my kor. Haha... immediately I knows he went to his gf house le. Haha... so went to have my dinner. Eat till half way, Wei Ling phoned me. I was like surprised as I thought she has forgotten me. Well, we've not been contacting each other for years yet now, she was looking for me. So of course I know she's asking me to do her a favour. And I wasn't wrong to said that. She's borrowing money from me. Well, I lent it to her as she say she will return back to me asap. Hope she mean what she said.

After passing her the money, I walked back home alone. The legs were so pain that I couldn't walk fast. So took a long time walking back home. When I reach home, I couldn't spot for my niece, Pearlyn. So went to ask my mom where 's she. And my mom told me that her daddy had came to fetch her home le. Then was a little sad lor... no ones to play with. Then mom told me to go and eat the KFC that dad had brought just now when I was out. Then I was like wanting to say "What? I beg your pardon?". Haix... eat again? Yes, I ate it up after bathe.

So after finish eating, I went to my room and wanna surf net. But couldn't. Sigh... not sure what's wrong with my internet explorer. Haix... so didn't stays online for too long then went to sleep le.

I hope I'll luv myself more

17:43

22 July 2004

I had found part of my passion back

Hm, Thursday had my 1.5km run. First round, came back at 2mins plus follow by 6mins. So guess what's my timing for the whole run? Wahaha, sad to say is 12mins +. Well, of course I failed by 1min + but is alright. I will work harder the next time.

Was feeling a little dizzy while I saw him walking out from the SR class. He was pressing his handphone so guess he was smsing someone. So I walked to my class and the lecturer was still there therefore I sat outside the classroom.

During CTS lesson every group done their own presentation. As for my group, I shared the experience with my lecturer and c'mates'. There are some more events that took place on that day, but I couldn't recall what happened next.

After which, went home with my nu-er, Gina. So reach home at about 4pm plus then went to shower. Finish shower le, nothing to do went to practise cello. Finally, I found part of my passion back. So was playing quite well. [Happy]

I hope I'll luv myself more

17:14

21 July 2004

I lost my passion

Now having BSA lesson. Thought that internet can't be used yesterday so today also can't, but then again, I was wrong. *Happy*

Today couldn't wake up on time, so Kelly went to school alone. I was thinking of not going to school so early because after BK lesson I'll have 2hrs break. I hates it, but till, I went to school and of course, I was late. However, I'm not the only one.

Ms Ng taught a new topic, "Control A/Cs". Can understand but not quite. Maybe I'll do a revision after reaching home. But I'll prefer to practise cello before doing the revision lor. *Sianz*

After that was two hours break. Sianz man... they going out to Westmall but I insist I want to stay in school. So Gina's stays with me and we went to the library to do some revision together. In the middle, Yee Peng came and sat down without asking us. I mean at least she've to ask "May I sit down" or "May I join the two of you" etc ma. Basic manners also don't have. So she sat down and asked us to teach her BK so of course I explained to her. But I don't think she understand much lor. Haix...

Guess the two us were too committed to our work that we missed out our lunch. Haha... good man! Diet... so that can slim down. Mention of that, reminds me of S&W lesson tomorrow. Going to run 1.5km within 11mins. Possible? Yes... for me. But... like I say in my previous entry, I've not been exercising for about 1 year plus so maybe 1.5km for me will be a little too tough tomorrow. For sure going to have legs cramp.

Oh ya, shit man! My PE attire was in the school locker. Sigh, guess tomorrow have to go to school earlier to get change to my attire. Cuz... first period 's S&W le. Guess we're going to suffer for the rest of the day tomorrow. Walking like a cripple elderly.

Update

Guess I lost my passion of playing cello. Couldn't play well just now, so was a little frustrated so didn't practice for long. Die man, going to suffer this coming Friday. Have SP wor... sianz...

After practicing, have my dinner and watch half an hour show, after which, went to do my project which needs to be submitted tomorrow for spot check. Finally, manage to get some information about IKEA or else, die man!

Guess tomorrow we've to do a presentation for CTS lesson. It's about customer service... sigh, none of us had went out to observe the service of each shop. How?

Hmm, wanna go sleep liao... tired... -.-

I hope I'll luv myself more

13:21

20 July 2004

Can't think of any title

Promised MH that I'll accompany him to Mr. Ji house to discuss something with him. Of course, Mr Ji's going to call the three of us to play once for him and that's why I wore skirt just hope to be excused. However, I was wrong.

So end up the three of us played both Chanston Trist and Sonatina for him. Of course, I'm the most lousy one. How come? Of course got lots of excuses behind it.

Firstly, I'm there to talk to him but not playing exam pieces for him. Secondly, I'm wearing skirt, mind you (Mr Ji). Thirdly, I'm not in the mood to play of course couldn't play well. Lastly, I couldn't adapt to his cello. More or less there're different between his and mine... right?

So the duration for the practice was extended to about 45mins? Well, he offered us free lesson man! But I don't fancy it. Sigh... 'cuz I haven't been practicing for three days. So...

Hm, now is time to give comments. Starts off with MH

Chanston Trist - Tempo was a little too slow and accuracy was poor. (Those notes that Mr Ji says not accurate I also can spot it out. So you should know how inaccurate your notes are) But vibrato and intonation were well played.

Sonatina - There are some mis-counted entry elsewhere and some articulation notes were too exaggerated play. But accuracy was much more secure and has shown great sense of music character.

Meditation - Inaccurate notes were found when playing. But tempo and vibrato were well played.

A... Jo's wise, comment given to her long long ago le. So... lazy to type again. But overall, Chanston Trist was more well played than Sonatina. And, I don't think you're so skillful to TOU SHI lor. But guess you can played well because of some explanations taught to you when you're with me. Well, maybe you're skillfuls, maybe you're not. And I don't like you deceiving yourself. I know you will prefer Melodies studies no.5 to Robot's March right? But when Mr. Ji ask you, you didn't comment anything.

Lesson ended... so MH dad was driving us back home. So reach home at about 2200hrs, was extremely tired. After having dinner, sleep le.

I hope I'll luv myself more

22:30

19 July 2004

Today journal

Ms Tay called my name when I was happily surfing net. Wa kao, ask me go out and do a demostration. Well, how 'll I know how to do it when I don't even listen when you're teaching. Luckily she gave me instructions ar bo me sure don't know how to do. Anyway, before she called out my name, I have a strong intuition that she'll call me. Well, an accurate sixth sense? Haix...

BSA assignment was easy today, just need to key in the information. So after finish doing, can go for lunch break and I went to Co-op and report my duty first before going for lunch.

Didn't do anything today. Maybe there're too many helpers today. Today came a new comer, perhaps, I can say I had seen her before but didn't know her quite well. Well, frankly speaking, don't really like her 'cuz she too BA DAO... ;p

Alvin's finally teach me how to do purchasing but still didn't manage to jot down all notes. But of 'cuz the main point I've jotted it down. Hopefully, next time I'll be asked to do purchasing. Haha, let's see if the notes could help me out.

Supposely after lunch break 'll be CDP (Career Developement Program) but Mrs Png changed it to OFP (Office Procedures) of 'cuz she's teaching us both subjects. So exam paper we sat for Friday was being issued back to us. Well, pretty disappointed with my result due to some misunderstandings in between of the exam paper. If not, I believe I could 've done better than this **** result (31/40 = 78%). Anyway, this paper is not counted into any class progress test or etc... but it still mean much to me. Mrs Png says that it was a tough paper but I don't really think so. Sound confident? Yes I'm, but pitiful, Kenneath won me by 1 mark. Shit man! A number of failure in class so Mrs Png had decided to give us a re-test. Well, hopes that I can do well in it.

Of course she went through the answer, after which we proceed to SR4 (Smart Room 4) to have our CDP project done. Erm, I didn't do... 'cuz I couldn't find any other relevent information that I had already have in hand. So... what's the point of finding it over and over?

Dad was back to normal again. Sigh, it's extremely horrible when he runs out of money. He can be a totally another different person. Mood-swings, don't bother about us when we don't even go down and buy our dinner, talk to him also don't wanna respone etc etc... sianz... guess you people can imagine how horrified it was. But now, things are gradually getting back to normal. *Luckily*

One last thing, I'm really mad with my PC. Really feels like throwing it away. Well, guess there's a problem with the motherboard, and not enough memory when opening some program, like internet explorer. Sianz... so sometimes, I couldn't manage to update my blog at home because of this reason lor. So I'm thinking of buying a laptop now. Sigh, really feels regretted that that time when my mom asked if she should buy one for me but I refused. Sianz... now... regret already la. Haix... perhaps, consider about it again next year provided that I gets my schorlarship.

Tomorrow have to report at the SR4 at 7.50am... sianz... don't know would I be able to wake up early in the morning or not. Pray hard for me wor...

I hope I'll luv myself more

22:50

Miss my journal?

It had been a long time since I last update my blog le. U people missing my blog? Haha... Kidding.

Of course now having BSA lessons but don't think I'll listen. Because arr, in the end I still don't know what the hell the lecturer is teaching.

Think Saturday ba, didn't have any thing special to share. So didn't come online and update. As for yesterday, I try to recall and type it below.

Yesterday woke up pretty early, at about 9am? So went to have a wash up after that do a little thiny before going out to CP. Reach there quite early and CP haven't starts yet. *Good than* Went in to the instrument room to take cello but wa lao... my favourite one cannot be used. *Sianz* So take the one that I hates most one 'cuz no more other cello for me to use le. After which, CH and SN came and a while later, MH came in too. But there isn't any additional cello so MH decided that he don't wanna play. *Sianz*

So me saw him didn't play, me also jump out from the CP. Sitting down there chatting with him and lao da. So chat chat a while, CP over le. So happy lor. Haha...

SN passed me the money that CH owned me long time ago. And I find it strange so asked him how come you seems to be the one paying me back. Then he told me that CH don't have small change but he(CH) 'll return back to him(SN) later on.

Then I took the money. At the same time, asking him to call his sis to come for the CCCP. But he told me that his sis don't even like playing cello. Haix... sad man! But nvm, I'll slowly bought in more people for the CCCP.

*CSTSNSLMHC4H*

Haha know what I'm talking above? Well, if you know then good for you lor if not, good for me then. Haha... *Mad*

A... after all people leave le, left the three of us. Continue to chat chat lor.

Then asked MH to the exam pieces etc. But don't think that he had make enough preparation. Well... maybe he's not in the mood to perform ba. Haix...

Really hopes that the three of us can pass together lor.

That's all ba. Haix...

I hope I'll luv myself more

12:18

16 July 2004

Happy

Today woke up damn early, 6.30am because of morning assembly. Well, it was raining heavily but still I didn't bother to take an umbrella because I'm running out of time. Who cares to take an umbrella when I don't even have a time to drink a cup of my aiai, milo. Haix... not even taking my water bottle.

So the bus was crowded, no seat. Kelly and I saw that there is another 99 behind our bus, so we alight and took the bus. Finally there's a seat for us le.

Reach Clementi area, rain getting smaller. When the bus reaches our school bus stop, the rain stopped. The sun was shinning... wa... can sense the warmth. Feeling so good.

No ones in the parade ground yet, so we went to our locker and put our bag in it. So when we're about to go the parade ground, it rains again. Sigh... so assembly was cancelled. Wa lao, I was like wanting to scold ****. Haix... woke up so early just to attend the morning assembly but then it was called off... *Sianz*

Lecturer haven't come yet cum I'm damn hungry. Asking them to accompany me to canteen. Well, didn't buy anything to eat except for a packet of milo. Feels much more better after having a packet drink.

So chat chat with them then bell rings le, went to class. Then walk pass the stairs... wahaha... saw the back of *** haha... happy lor. But at first I thought I saw *** w ***... don't know got see wrongly or not. Well, eye sight not so good arr... so... haha...

A... wanna surf net le... take care wor...

Update

Blogger adding new functions? Haha... good good. Hopes that it can slowly slowly improve it.

Ya here to update my blog again. Today during EFW lesson, CA didn't conduct lesson but used that lesson to discuss about the NDBP (National Day Bazzar Project). She discussing about the capital etc etc... so can say wasted an hour lor. So bored the meeting.

Took some orders today. But there were lesser orders compared to the order yesterday. But guess, we're doing well. Hmm, OFP test turns out to be quite easy for me even though I didn't revise for one part of the topic. Well, confident enough to score a 90 over...

So after school didn't go home straight away, went to libraby to do my advertisement with my group members. Well, I dare to say that it's not really well done but I don't wanna waste their efforts. One more to go, the last one I hope, the banner. Still thinking how can I be more creative when creating that.

Saw THS outside the Co-op shop buying ice-cream. So I was asking him to buy the pen from us. And guess what? He really bought it even though he thinks it nothing special yet cosy. Haix... feeling very touched lor. Haha, I did a summary of all orders... and realise that all lecturers who have taught us before, all purchase a min of one pen from us le. Haha... o ya... during the mtg, Mdm Juhairah (Ju) did mention that the pen we're selling is really too expensive. "I'm acting as a supporter, that's why, I purchased. But frankly speaking, if I were to act as a customer, I'll not buy it." She added. I was quite stun when I heard that but is true.

Oh ya, something that I really wanan share it out. That's the **** NAPFA test. We were told by our lecturer that our school will starts from the 1.5km trainning before proceeding to 2.4km. Guess how many mins we girls have to come back for 3 runs of our whole campus? <11mins...>

The main issue wasn't this. The worse and the most I hate it is we're to score for a Sliver inorder to pass our S&W (Sports and Wellness) module. Wa kao, they say Bronze wasn't good enough, so have to go for Sliver. In order to aim for a Sliver award, we've to score at least a "B" for each station (The five stations). Sianz... sure cannot make it de. Even though I can excel in some stations but for sure it can't cover up my weakest station grade. So... giving up...

Piano accompanyment found le. Charging $50/hr. My secondary school music teacher, Ms Chew. Hmm, good good. But sigh, mom just given me $50 today... which I'm going to use it to pay my internet bill. Then... last few days also got give me $60... total for this month she given me $110? Now wanna hired the painist don't know will she allows or not. Wahaha... think will ba... have a talk with her when everything is confirmed.

Sigh, I was like kinda hating Mr. Ji. Lending my scores around to his students. Well, that's perfectly alright with me. But... when it came to their examination day, I've to pass the ORIGINAL score to the respective students that he told me to do so. Sianz... what a fuck he's. What he takes me as? I can pass it to MH and he will then pass it to him... then whoever he wanna lend my scores to, that's his business le. Don't ever ever ask me to this kind of stupid things again!!!

I hope I'll luv myself more